The Problem with Pain

"So... what does it feel like?" , my dear husband asks as me, as I'm writhing in pain on the bed last night. "I can't describe it," I said through the tears. Ummm... lightning?, stabbing? aching? On a scale from 1-10? Ahhh!!! Anyone who has ever visited a pain mangagement doctor knows exactly what I'm talking about. Anyway, by the time I thought on a good way to describe it, David was sleeping peacefully by my side. It feel like a really bad toothache... you know, when you suck air through a cavity? Except it starts in my back and circulates through my legs. I was a bit upset that he wasn't interested enough to stay awake and wait for my well thought out description of pain. Oh well, I can't get angry at him for falling asleep at midnight, right? So I lie in bed. Unable to sleep. I was tempted to eat through the pain, it's much easier to deal with pain when one has access to a godiva chocolate truffle. Hmmm, can't reach the truffles. Ahhh, can't reach the remote. As I was nearly swallowed up in self-pity, a line from a song came to mind. I remember singing this song on sunday. I don't remember the entire song, but one particular line really stuck out to me... ' strip away everything I depend on, so I can depend on you.' I had a tough time even singing those words that day. During worship I even skipped that line of the song. I knew that I was not ready to surrender all that I depend on. I still need my husband to understand. I NEED my remote. I NEED MY TRUFFLES!!! The Lord showed me last night that I don't need those things, I want them, but I don't need them. I NEED HIM. It's a shame that I didn't run to the Lord until I was forced to, but He still receives me as His child. He even blessed me with some thoughts and ideas for my upcoming ballet year. He was willing and waiting to bless me. He is Faithful! OK, now I can enjoy my truffle.