The Forbidden Laugh

O.k. So it hit me again. The forbidden laugh hit me hard during worship at caregroup this week. I'll explain. Davy and I stopped by the church on our way to caregroup to pick up music for worship. Christmas music... Silent Night and Joy to the World. I asked him if he thought people would have a hard time worshipping in a caregroup setting to these songs. I know it shouldn't matter, but let's get real, some songs are distracting to sing in a small group. So I made a joke that David should 'slip in' a little rendition of Jingle Bells... and see if anyone raises there hands. That's pretty funny, right? Just close your eyes for a moment and imagine that... you'll laugh out loud.
Anyway, as soon as we hit the weak high note in Silent Night... I lost it. I'm standing in the front of the room, facing everyone, my dear husband is leading worship and I am bursting from within. I guess I could pass it off as 'holy' laughter, but our church isn't very used to that. Ummm, cry? It didn't work... I settled for my last resort... I bolted. I'm so sorry if anyone thought that I was laughing directly at them. That definitely was not the case.
Now, here's what I'm thinking. I think Jesus would've laughed. I know it can seem sacreligious, but I do think there is a fine line during worship. I've always been very sensitive to people making fun of others during worship. I've been 'made fun' of quite a bit for the whole dancing thing. I don't think that's o.k. In the Old Testemant, David's wife is struck with barrenness for mocking him as he worshipped openly. However, I am def. able to laugh at myself for alot of the things that happen during worship... We're human... things are funny!!! Old K.P.C. people remember the 'Pillow and the Crown' or the 'Lion of Judah' banner. These things are funny because most people would have no clue what was happenning if they weren't raised with those things. It's the same thing with worship at our church... funny things happen during worship... I think it's ok to laugh!